listening to ben folds

as ben folds would say, "make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall, but there's always someone cooler than you. yeah, you're the shit but you won't be it for long..."

at apu, i see a lot of this competition to be better than each other. who's the best christian, who looked better in their bikini by the UP pool, who put the coolest bible verse up as their facebook status, who has the busiest schedule of classes, community service, and leadership positions, who cooks the best, who has a better longboard sitting outside the caf waiting to be stolen, who has more leadership positions on their resume, who has all of the latest fashions.... the list goes on and on.

are we all so self-conscious that we create pride in ourselves by building off of the flaws we see in others? i think it's beautiful when we stop stepping on others to make ourselves feel better. that person is our brother, is our sister...

but this is bigger than that. i think it comes down to that we aren't confident in God. we aren't confident in the person God understands us to be, so we feel we have to be in competition with others to be deserving of God's attention and recognition.

you may feel cool now, but it won't last. "one-uping" people can only hold you up for so long. eventually, you'll have to face who you really are and (more importantly) God. God, when He judges us, is not going to compare us to others, but take us for what we are. that day could come at any moment. are you ready?

huntington beach.

this place has become a favorite for me and my dad. it's like our secret escape, a little vacation from the crazyness.

tonight, after driving down from monterey, we walked on the windy! beach to watch the sun set into the raging ocean surface. nothing ruins an awesome sunset like oil rigs...

but after a beautiful sunset, and watching butler lose, we had dinner at one of the best sushi places i have ever eaten at. sushi on fire is officially the most delicious sushi place to date. except, a 5'4" round asian lady was very loud and bossy...scary.

one of the best days i have had in a long time.

why, you ask? long drive with someone who loves me dearly, and who i adore, beach sunset, delicious sushi, oh! soft serve from the friendliest employee who had some wicked hair, and feeling simply peaceful in my perfectly-made hotel bed.

despite having to leave the home i love, today has made me smile.
as my dad always says, it's about the little things.

chipped black nail polish

i have chipped black nail polish.

and similar to how i do not have the desire to repaint or remove, i have not had the energy to write for my very own blog. this blog is entiled: "you make me smile." well honestly, lately not much has been happening that makes me smile. so, here's to hoping something will come along soon...

....and that i repaint my nails.

oh, and matthew mcchonahy (or however you spell that...mc-con-ah-hay) should stop being in movies.