listening to ben folds

as ben folds would say, "make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall, but there's always someone cooler than you. yeah, you're the shit but you won't be it for long..."

at apu, i see a lot of this competition to be better than each other. who's the best christian, who looked better in their bikini by the UP pool, who put the coolest bible verse up as their facebook status, who has the busiest schedule of classes, community service, and leadership positions, who cooks the best, who has a better longboard sitting outside the caf waiting to be stolen, who has more leadership positions on their resume, who has all of the latest fashions.... the list goes on and on.

are we all so self-conscious that we create pride in ourselves by building off of the flaws we see in others? i think it's beautiful when we stop stepping on others to make ourselves feel better. that person is our brother, is our sister...

but this is bigger than that. i think it comes down to that we aren't confident in God. we aren't confident in the person God understands us to be, so we feel we have to be in competition with others to be deserving of God's attention and recognition.

you may feel cool now, but it won't last. "one-uping" people can only hold you up for so long. eventually, you'll have to face who you really are and (more importantly) God. God, when He judges us, is not going to compare us to others, but take us for what we are. that day could come at any moment. are you ready?